down it comes......

I wonder why Monsoons are looking sad these days, I always thought Fall is the saddest of all but suddenly I had a change of heart which does not occur very often, when I was walking through a rain.
It looks like Monsoons have something to hide, as if they are ashamed to let it out and that’s why they cry the feeling off, the thunder and all the rumbling are like the anger of a hungry child, like how it starts shouting and all the mess it creates to convey the message to its mother. The message that is obvious only to the mother.
It follows a pattern which is unpredictable, how ironic.
The handsomeness with which it came down reminded me of the first walk of a cousin of mine, "a drop here and a drop there" and then starts with full flow, washes away the dirt off the roads synonymous to how a meaningful smile from a friend washes away the sadness from our hearts. No matter how sad the rains look getting drenched in a rain always makes me happy will only be an understatement since I have nothing else to look forward for in my fellow beings, their predictable nature only brings disappointment, but then i am the same as them.
I have this habit of looking at all those phenomena and non living things as anthropomorphic entities which gives me the privilege of assuming what they think and to explain how their behavior supports our views since they have not the ability to argue against us and for which I am very thankful to them and awfully comfortable in using them.

void.....

The death of stars is where the black holes are born, the most beautiful of nature's creations becomes a hole of despair; it traps light in between the infinites of eternity the space that is so vast where the speed of lights looks as if it is still. The stillness so calm like death itself, where we can hear our own heart beats and holds on to them.
Imagine a lightning that stays still on the skies as if it’s a photograph, the smile of the skies caught between the earth and endlessness, the beauty of power it etches upon our souls with which it pens down the song of the Gods, the magnetic storms where the spectrum of lightening is not limited to white alone but something that peeks in to the white and those threads which are shredded in to every possible bit
The mightiness of the space and the oceans is what shows us the meaninglessness of life. The morality we praise so much and our existence before this infinity looks so irrational almost as if it’s close to nothingness.
Can nothingness be quantified? i guess not, in that case what is the term "almost close to nothingness" means.
every measurement we make is relative, which in turn makes our existence relative to the vastness that lies beneath. can we be neglected or are we actually neglected by the rest of the universe. who knows the answers.
The vacuum of the Universe holds more meaning than the material existence of life since life itself was born from nothingness and disappears with no sign of whatever form again in to nothingness.
i believe when you are able to solve the puzzles of the universe, you would have understood that they are not meant to be understood

p.s: for now let us look forward to the solar storm that is due in 2012 :)

Theory of living and non living things…..

Whenever I say ‘we’ in this post it refers to all living organisms, from a single celled mo to the biggest mammal, and ‘they’ will refer to all non living things

Why do we move, why do we do whatever we usually do, is it because we want to do it or is it because of the relative position of other objects and things and what is happening around us or are we doing everything on our own will??. I do not understand why I thought about this, may be because my college life is over and I don’t have anything else useful to do. Never mind, I’ve decided to write a post on this.

Consider this case, I am moving my hand to get a glass of water, you may say I am doing this because I am feeling thirsty but if I feel thirsty I am suppose to drink some water why do I move my hands. I move my hands because the glass of water is there, so my movement is dictated by the position of a non living thing (glass of water) okay let us get a little deep in to the concept, why is the glass of water there if someone had kept it there then my movement is dominated by a living thing right?? It flaws the whole theory but then again why would some one keep a glass of water there, may be because of the presence of a table and the rule that a glass of water should be on the table and not some where it could be toppled accidentally, and the table is there because the actual place where it was thought to be set is occupied by the refrigerator for argument. And after drinking the water I get up to refill It because the jug of water is not near enough and why didn’t my mom keep the jug on the table??, because it was filled with my books and my laptop which would be severely damaged on exposure to water
So in the end the glass, jug, laptop, books, refrigerator and water has dominated and has dictated what I do for a minute or two…

What if we are all non living things and they are all living things and we are doing there bidding with out our consciousness
And after all these non living things are older than us and have been our ancestors, their level of intelligence should be far beyond our comprehension.
It is not like I want it to be that way but there is always a possibility.
Okay, let us scale up to a bigger case,
Why do we do our works at day and sleep at night, isn’t it because of the presence and absence of sunlight and rotation of the earth
And consider agriculture, what we cultivate depends on the nature of the land and our food habits in turn depends on the land we live, our dressings depends on the climatic conditions.
And we call ourselves the intelligent ones and have developed a pride based on the idea that we decide the fate of everything else around, when the reality is nothing we do are actually what we want to do, most of the things we do are what we need to do.

And finally what if global warming is meant to happen, what if we are suppose to heat up the atmosphere by doing all the insane things we do.. What if all the factories and automobiles that do the job are not really working for us but for them
E.g.: It is known that using air-conditioning systems and refrigerators result in green house gas emission and why do we use them?? In order to reduce temperature from the actual one and why do we have to reduce it?? Because the temperature is above the tolerance limit of some of us so that we will use other means to cool ourselves and in the process will release the so called green house gases.

Things are never what they look like; our powerlessness hidden behind our pride.
Always respect what we find around us. May be they are our masters….

Rendezvous with The God.....!!!!

I have a thousand questions to ask, that’s what I told him, the divine look he gave I wasn’t sure if he’ll answer so I thought I’d better ask him if he will answer but I was worried since if he decide not to answer then this will be the first question that will be left unanswered but still there is no use waiting Its better to try and abandon hopes if he doesn’t answer…
And I was afraid if questioning the ultimate power will be accounted as a sin but my curiosity was overwhelming and also I was so sure according to my theories God was the top sinner since he created everything with imperfection even as a member of this intelligent species which named itself homosapiens, I am imperfect in my mind and i am telling myself I have questions to ask the creator and basically it is his fault, if he had jus been a little careful I wouldn’t have these many questions and if he had been much careful he wouldn’t have created us in the first place for which I’m sure he regrets now and if he does not then its just a matter of time, so I’ve made up mind and here I go ….
I asked him, “hey, are you The God???” shit what a stupid question to ask The God, of course he is The God jus see the smile in his face , I said to myself … but if he is God what actually is he doing down here and suddenly I was aware my question was still unanswered, so the first question as I feared has been a waste and I’m one down and only 999 more questions to go, is that his usual behavior or my stupid question might have caught him of guard after all if I was God and when someone asks me if I am God I will not reply because being a/The God I cannot afford self advertisement, now I’m really sure he is God, which human being will deny if he is asked by someone if he is God, will a human be stupid enough to remain silent no not a chance, a human would have said yes and demanded as much as he can and took me as his slave, Thank God he was actually God. With all this thoughts swirling around my little brain I had forgotten him and I looked up… and I’m privileged he was actually staring at me. A rendezvous with The God and I’m standing like a idiot how dumb I am people will die for an opportunity like this, no no actually its not my fault God must have made me dumb with his power may be he fears my questions, yes that’s it, this is the only possible explanation what else can make me dumb when i have so many questions and doubts, i turned back started to my home standing here is no use after all, instead I can go home and tell every one how I tackled God with my questions and with little luck I can make them believe…… because God is not going to come and defend himself he is The God and i am a human i must work hard to exploit whatever the situation offers and i think if this is working out this way then it just means God intended this to happen as how it had happened
this din go well i wish i have an other chance...

is atheism the answer ??????

I’ll start this post with my favourite quote “ if there is a God atheism must seem to him as less of an insult than religion” the punch line if u have failed to note is “if there is a god” which is a long argued controversy… one of my friend oscillates between extroversion and introversion  , when I come to think of it I figured out that I too have a floating mind but only in the case of the God, a mind that oscillates between theism and atheism for which I never managed to find an answer and for which now I ve decided ther cant be a precise explanation and even if ther is an explanation it will be of no importance now, as whoever this God person is seems to have lost interest in the current events, or may be he needs a battery recharge r something(a joke).
Human beings have never believed in anything that they cant understand or wat they cant see with their eyes but still the majority of people are theists atleast partly, when I tried to explain this anomaly to myself i understood that this is because God is a profitable asset as long as people believe ther is some one watching over taking account of everything we do they try to keep their sins to a forgivable amount which finds application in the law and order department especially in a country like India, and of course ther r priests in all religions who earn their everyday bread by washing our sins away and spending time speaking to God …. Our dear nithyananda and a whole lot of their kind will definitely agree with me on profitability of Mr.God.
Human mind works based on mathematics, the decisions it makes are expected by the mind to carry a higher probability of success, the belief of god is also based on a risk benefit factor, consider this two cases in the first case you don’t believe in god and by a chance he is actually out ther somewhere here comes the risk… and in the second case you believe in god u r profited if he s ther and you don’t loose anything if god is a false hypothesis, now our mind works out all the possibilities and decides that the most profitable option is the correct one.
Whichever is correct, I wish we should all with out consideration to our beliefs deserve to be protected from the kind of theists we know who….
Atleast as long as this God person comes in person and corrects his mistakes…

carelessness........

i wrote a post about the latest uproar about saving tigers, which my friends said and i too believe had some good points, the question always rises in my mind wenever i see those adds i wonder wat good can happen for the tigers when a white collared IT professional becomes a member in "save our tigers" campaign, and I had it explained why it is not important to worry abt this issue and even if it is worth the action should be taken in fields not in websites.... thats enough to understand wat i had in my previous post
now let me explain you the connection between the topic "carelessness" and my summary of the previous post, i actually deleted that post by mistake...
sometimes i amaze myself with my carelessness, forgetting keys, locking up my brother inside the house, loosing calculators, etc etc….,
one of my worst experiences is during my 12th standard, 2nd mid term if my memory is right, it is mathematics the subject I despise the most, I wrote that awfully difficult exam with great effort, wrote my name, standard, section all those stupid details required, folded the paper and brought it out with me which should have been submitted. When I realized wat had happened, I was actually happy because I’m the only one who knows that paper I brought outside is nt worth more than 10 marks, and I thought like all those criminals and decided ill deny whatever im asked about the paper.
Asusual my teachers and the invigilator that day and even our principal took special interest in the matter and efficiently traced back the crime and declared me the culprit, and my principle fixed me with his stare, one that FBI wd have given to Osama bin laden.
But ther was a sudden twist in the story, he told my teachers that its not the boy’s fault and it is human nature to escape from a crisis no matter wat the consequences could be.. and they, my teachers and the invigilator of that day should have been more careful and requested them to conduct a re-test for me… and I as usual hid my smile and walked back victoriously ……
I sometimes think too much and decide all theories about genetics and heredity are wrong because no one in my family are as careless as me or may be my carelessness dates back to one of my great great grand father or may be may be .. I am the odd piece in my family tree… or even may be I have developed this carelessness on my own and this will from now on continue to be inherited in the future, even if the last case is correct it still gives me a head ache because if carelessness is a trait and I have developed it now which might be inherited, then being careful should also have been a trait and which obviously is the dominant character in my family as far as my knowledge goes, why haven’t I inherited that?????? Whatever…. Who cares as long as I don’t carry any other papers out of exam halls because next time I may not be lucky enough to get away with it…… … 

hero worship

this is something that has been bothering me for quite a long time .... even since my 7 th standard i ve seen my friends quarreling about their favorite heroes ... telling the other one that he will do anything for his hero and he is this boy's role model, at times i wonder what a role model means... i thought it was wat we want to be ... a goal we set ourselves to reach, its like a star that led to jesus something that will keep us going till the very end ... i have my own role models both the positive ones and the negative ones i have the positive ones to learn wat to do and the negative ones also to learn wat not to do... but in any case selecting a cine hero as a role model that i can never do ... i just think they dont have wat it takes to teach us wat to do or even wat not to do, i was nt too aggressive in this thoughts but when i see some of my friends, i wonder hw can any one be so blind and think some one is good, imagine as if he is a real life hero from wat they see in the screens and even to fight their friends for someone most probably they cant even see during their lifetime.

wat bothers me most is many of this heroes are nt talented at all may be they ll perform well if they ever act on a film about "how to act bad" and believe me they might even get an Oscar, i do have my favorites ther is actually nothing wrong in it but i dont worship them and i wont even care to argue in favour of them because i know if im going to get hit by a car which has my favourite hero .. the hero will never rise even a finger to save me.

ther r some talented ones here and ther but why dont people understand, they act, they get ther money, they invest, they live a happy life of course on our cost, and its their business and why dont we take care of ours, its absurd to do anything other than enjoying the movie.

:( :( :(

writing blog is n't fun at all i dont want to write ... still my friends tell me to write ... they say its fun but i dont find it fun .. they say its easy but i even forget my blog address ... this is the third one im starting :( :(

since i dont do anything that isn't fun i do hope i d forget one day r the other :) :) :)